Sometimes. step back. take a look at life. realize what is important. follow ur heart. take those risks. understand that everything isn't gonna perfectly lay out like u want it to. things will get hard. u will fall. pick urself up. reach the top of that mtn. everything will work out the way it's supposed to.
I got in ANOTHER fender bender. this time. my fault. whatever. i was stuck in NON MOVING traffic. ROLLED into the guy in front of me. He complained that i caused his car to start beeping. whatever. i rolled maybe 1 mph...maybe. no cops. just insurance. ahhh. i can't worry. it happens.
good note...mal, suz, and banana are VISITING in dec. that means i get to be a REAL TOURIST!!!!
I'm loving these 85 degree days complete with sunshine. ITS OCT PPL!! I LOVE THAT! strapless dresses STILL!!!!
Things can only get better. a job would be great. a new apt even greater. but one step at a time!!! it's HIS plan! i just keep telling myself that!!!
Friday, October 16, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Better than cable!
I do have ONE MAJOR issue. In a coffee bean last night-shocking!!! I'm searching for a new home in Santa Monica b/c let's face it. I NEED the beach!!! and my own place- by MYSELF!!! That's beside the point!
I'm enjoying my mocha latte. I see this mid 30s man (relatively attractive) looking for something. So, of course I watch. HELLO- BORED! Then this girl, who NO LIE looks MAYBE 18 comes and sits with him! I notice he has his left hand hidden and the girl is FOCUSED on his face. They are CLEARLY on a date of sorts. She's doing the stupid laugh at everything he says b/c lets face it girls- we do that. He's going on and on. STILL HIDING THAT HAND. Then he's like "I'll walk you to ur car."
That's when I see it. A RING ON THE LEFT RING FINGER. AHA! So of course, me and my friend act like were done and follow b/c this is too good. So we catch them making out by the car. She's DEF NOT his wife. u could just tell! OMG! WHAT A PIG! That's my issue. IF UR TAKEN...UR TAKEN!!!! someone loves u. remember that! But I guess in LA. That ring is just an accessory. Doesn't mean u can't date younger! ha!
I will give the guy credit. The girl was TOO GOOGILY eyed to even notice. She was infatuated. What a good show!! haha!
I'm enjoying my mocha latte. I see this mid 30s man (relatively attractive) looking for something. So, of course I watch. HELLO- BORED! Then this girl, who NO LIE looks MAYBE 18 comes and sits with him! I notice he has his left hand hidden and the girl is FOCUSED on his face. They are CLEARLY on a date of sorts. She's doing the stupid laugh at everything he says b/c lets face it girls- we do that. He's going on and on. STILL HIDING THAT HAND. Then he's like "I'll walk you to ur car."
That's when I see it. A RING ON THE LEFT RING FINGER. AHA! So of course, me and my friend act like were done and follow b/c this is too good. So we catch them making out by the car. She's DEF NOT his wife. u could just tell! OMG! WHAT A PIG! That's my issue. IF UR TAKEN...UR TAKEN!!!! someone loves u. remember that! But I guess in LA. That ring is just an accessory. Doesn't mean u can't date younger! ha!
I will give the guy credit. The girl was TOO GOOGILY eyed to even notice. She was infatuated. What a good show!! haha!
RAIN!!!!
For the 1st time in MONTHS...it RAINED!!! so i got all excited b/c i thought i would get to wear my rainboots. My roommates are like...it's monsooning. So I'm ALL EXCITED! I walk outside. and NOTHING. DRIZZLE!!! ha. this is NOT a monsoon!
But my day got better, minus the rainboots, Justin Timberlake is following me. I swear. 1st, i was on the phone and look over. There he is next to me in Beverly Hills. Then, I ate lunch in Studio City, driving to Santa Monica but have to pass through Brentwood. I'm at a stop light. Look over. There he is AGAIN! Look, if you want to talk to me. You DEF don't have to stalk me! Just roll down ur window, say, "Want to go out?" I'll reply, "I'll think about it." I mean I've see him 3 times since being here. JT- it's totally cool to talk to me! HA!
Friday, October 9, 2009
Hire Me PLEASE!!!
I got back to the land of the "beautiful" tues night. Wed i had an "interview" of sorts with MGM. It went well, but the job is not open quite yet. That means I get to wait some more. I would think I'd LOVE this wait game. FREEDOM ALL DAY. but NO! I'm so eager to just get wake up in the morning with an agenda. I would LOVE to start working. I walk into these places and see the edit bays (which for u non production ppl is where ppl sit ALL day, staring at a computer, editing ur FAVORITE shows) and just want to jump on one! I want to be in a dark hole in the wall and create a story. I want to be in the mix of production. I just want the CHANCE to prove myself. I got out of school. 2 degrees. moved. told i need more experience. BUT NO ONE will give me that opportunity. COME ON PPL. How am i to gain it, if you won't give me the chance! Plus, I'm getting REAL bored REAL fast! NOT FUN!!
I just want a chance ANYWHERE. I want an INCOME! i want to be back doing the 1 thing i LOVE more than anything. I'm a fighter, so i'm gonna fight through this. But i'm getting bored and annoyed real quick. I'm hardworking, passionate, efficient, enthusiastic, oo and smart- I KNOW EDITING SOFTWARE!! I KNOW how to produce, write, anchor. I'm a GOOD choice!!! LA. I lOVE U. I WANT TO STAY. but I NEED SOMETHING!!! I know it's gonna get better. bc I WANT this. reminder. I'm walking by faith. I know it's gonna work out the way it's supposed to!
I just want a chance ANYWHERE. I want an INCOME! i want to be back doing the 1 thing i LOVE more than anything. I'm a fighter, so i'm gonna fight through this. But i'm getting bored and annoyed real quick. I'm hardworking, passionate, efficient, enthusiastic, oo and smart- I KNOW EDITING SOFTWARE!! I KNOW how to produce, write, anchor. I'm a GOOD choice!!! LA. I lOVE U. I WANT TO STAY. but I NEED SOMETHING!!! I know it's gonna get better. bc I WANT this. reminder. I'm walking by faith. I know it's gonna work out the way it's supposed to!
Monday, October 5, 2009
Flying Back
AHHHHHHHHH...i ABSOLUTELY HATE packing!!!! i mean i have one big suitcase and a carryone. it stinks!!! i have so much still to take back with me!!! Will someone pack for me?!?!
I've loved my trip back. it was WONDERFUL to see everyone! but it's a little harder this time to leave. I've missed being around everyone. Even just hanging with my parents, brothers, and friends. But i know when I get back...there's my dream. So let's do it.
oo and I HATE planes rides. 2 tomorrow! what what! hope these are better than the ones on the way. i hate the middle seat. i''m in it both times. i hate the lack of space. and i hate being in flight. love the airports, not so much flying. I'll put in my Ipod and sleep hopefully. maybe ill be seated next to someone amazing who will make the 4 hr trip fly by. the one to burbank is only 1 1/2hrs, so i can do that.
LA...i'm coming back!!!! ATL...i'll miss u again!
I've loved my trip back. it was WONDERFUL to see everyone! but it's a little harder this time to leave. I've missed being around everyone. Even just hanging with my parents, brothers, and friends. But i know when I get back...there's my dream. So let's do it.
oo and I HATE planes rides. 2 tomorrow! what what! hope these are better than the ones on the way. i hate the middle seat. i''m in it both times. i hate the lack of space. and i hate being in flight. love the airports, not so much flying. I'll put in my Ipod and sleep hopefully. maybe ill be seated next to someone amazing who will make the 4 hr trip fly by. the one to burbank is only 1 1/2hrs, so i can do that.
LA...i'm coming back!!!! ATL...i'll miss u again!
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Guy with Tattoos and a BIG heart~
Life is an adventure. Some of us go the typical route- school, college, job. Some take other routes. Some ppl get into things they shouldn't. People judge them. We're human. it happens.
I learned a value lesson tonight from someone i admire more than anything. He doesn't have your typical all american life. He's gotten into trouble. worked hard for everything. gone downt he complete wrong path. But he is amazing. He's got the BIGGEST heart and i know loves me no matter what. The lesson that he taught me was a simple one. Dont judge a book by its cover. Get to know it through and through. Life isn't gonna be handed to us. IT shouldn't be.
He taught me what love really is. He taught me who really matter. He taught me to be myself and stop taking shit. He loves me. He ALWAYS has my back. On the outside, he's rough. He's tatted up. He doesn't care. BUt inside. He is LOVE. He is kind. He is everything I want to be and more. He'll never be fake. He'll tell me how it is. He'll keep me grounded. I heard stories I never thought I would ever hear. I learned things about ppl I never thought. But he taught me that those that matter will be by your side NO MATTER how many mistakes you make and they will always be proud of you.
This man is remarkable. If taken the time to get to know, he's smart, FUNNY, and kind. He reminded me that everyone should ahve a chance. You don't know what people ahve been through, so don't judge until you get to know them and even then don't b/c who are we to do that?! Everyone has a shot. Everyone can know love. and everyone can know good. No matter where life leads. THe thing that matters is your family (my borthers parents and friends) and my relation with the Big Man. Everything else is nothing but added bonus.
It took this talk to night to realize that I have a large support group. I have people that love me so much they would die for me. I have people that no matter what I do, will always be with me. This guy is awesome. I love that he called me out for being "Californian." He's my protector and my big brother. He means the world to me.
I guess I'm writting this b/c i think we often don't take time to really get to know ppl. Esp where I'm living (what ur driving and how much u make) but no of that matters. I'm so thankful to have a big brother that continues to teach me things and to hear he's proud of who i am makes me know that everything is ok.
Go give ur family a BIG hug!!! bc im pretty sure we are all blessed to have AMAZING ppl in our lives!
I learned a value lesson tonight from someone i admire more than anything. He doesn't have your typical all american life. He's gotten into trouble. worked hard for everything. gone downt he complete wrong path. But he is amazing. He's got the BIGGEST heart and i know loves me no matter what. The lesson that he taught me was a simple one. Dont judge a book by its cover. Get to know it through and through. Life isn't gonna be handed to us. IT shouldn't be.
He taught me what love really is. He taught me who really matter. He taught me to be myself and stop taking shit. He loves me. He ALWAYS has my back. On the outside, he's rough. He's tatted up. He doesn't care. BUt inside. He is LOVE. He is kind. He is everything I want to be and more. He'll never be fake. He'll tell me how it is. He'll keep me grounded. I heard stories I never thought I would ever hear. I learned things about ppl I never thought. But he taught me that those that matter will be by your side NO MATTER how many mistakes you make and they will always be proud of you.
This man is remarkable. If taken the time to get to know, he's smart, FUNNY, and kind. He reminded me that everyone should ahve a chance. You don't know what people ahve been through, so don't judge until you get to know them and even then don't b/c who are we to do that?! Everyone has a shot. Everyone can know love. and everyone can know good. No matter where life leads. THe thing that matters is your family (my borthers parents and friends) and my relation with the Big Man. Everything else is nothing but added bonus.
It took this talk to night to realize that I have a large support group. I have people that love me so much they would die for me. I have people that no matter what I do, will always be with me. This guy is awesome. I love that he called me out for being "Californian." He's my protector and my big brother. He means the world to me.
I guess I'm writting this b/c i think we often don't take time to really get to know ppl. Esp where I'm living (what ur driving and how much u make) but no of that matters. I'm so thankful to have a big brother that continues to teach me things and to hear he's proud of who i am makes me know that everything is ok.
Go give ur family a BIG hug!!! bc im pretty sure we are all blessed to have AMAZING ppl in our lives!
I failed. Updating!
Sry. It's been a while. Busy applying to jobs adn living a day to day life in LA. The last few weeks have been crazy. Let's see it consists of the GA bar ever sat for the games. COffee Bean, Bernadette and Doug's for dinner, and sleep. CRAZY!!!
I'm really starting to get adjusted and love LA life. Ive met some cool people. ME and January (my former boss at Q100) hang out a lot more. WE both tend to attract some odd fellas. I had one guy tell me we have a love stroy that ends at the alter...umm NO!!! She = guys fromt he Hangover...haha! its nice to ahve someone who understands home and undestands life in LA. It's an adjustment.
I got to come home this weekedn for LSU, and i realized a lot about myself./ I'm growing up. I'm learning who I am. I don't need anyone or anything to make me happy. I'm independent, yes lonely in LA, but strong and confident. I don't want to put up with bs. Unfortunately at the same time, I am forced to realize other things like I want to be in control. Not like a OCD, but i like to know i'm in control of my life. I have my guard up a lot in LA. I don't want anyone to have a chance to hurt me. I walk around knowing that out there its me. I can't depend on anyone else yet.
O btw. did the whole Hollywood scene last weekend. NOT ME. Im a beer and bar girl. Happy in jeans a t shirt with a beer and football. That scene is an experience and well don't like it. I did however get to party with PitBull...not cool. So i'm starting to feel like i fit in a little more while keeping my southern charm.
I'm really starting to get adjusted and love LA life. Ive met some cool people. ME and January (my former boss at Q100) hang out a lot more. WE both tend to attract some odd fellas. I had one guy tell me we have a love stroy that ends at the alter...umm NO!!! She = guys fromt he Hangover...haha! its nice to ahve someone who understands home and undestands life in LA. It's an adjustment.
I got to come home this weekedn for LSU, and i realized a lot about myself./ I'm growing up. I'm learning who I am. I don't need anyone or anything to make me happy. I'm independent, yes lonely in LA, but strong and confident. I don't want to put up with bs. Unfortunately at the same time, I am forced to realize other things like I want to be in control. Not like a OCD, but i like to know i'm in control of my life. I have my guard up a lot in LA. I don't want anyone to have a chance to hurt me. I walk around knowing that out there its me. I can't depend on anyone else yet.
O btw. did the whole Hollywood scene last weekend. NOT ME. Im a beer and bar girl. Happy in jeans a t shirt with a beer and football. That scene is an experience and well don't like it. I did however get to party with PitBull...not cool. So i'm starting to feel like i fit in a little more while keeping my southern charm.
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